I know that everything works out the way it's supposed to and usually for reasons that we don't see or understand sometimes till years later. I've always believed that. Right now, it's just hard to still believe that and not hang onto the guilt and self loathing quitting work is causing for me. Please don't feel badly or sad for me because that isn't the propose or my posting. I just needed to pull the weight off my chest by talking to the only people I know of who can even begin to TRULY, TRULY understand what I'm feeling. Yes tomorrow is another day as Scarlett O'Hara would say and whatever plan God has for me next will unfold in time. That's tomorrow though...it's still today, and today sucked.
Thank You all for letting me vent and God Bless each and every one of you for what each go through every day. The others don't know but WE surely do...The struggle is REAL and sometimes, like today for me, it goes way beyond just the physical pain. Wishing each of you a pain free night.